Hi, Nick,
I wasn't going to respond to this forum because I know that my brand of common sense does not meet with much approval.
Forget the law of attraction! It is codswallop and designed only to make a lot of money for the perpetrators. The secret is that I did not 'manifest' the deaths of three wives, I did not 'manifest' the deaths of two children, nor did I 'manifest' a life time of pain with various forms of cancer.
What I did do was help my parents overcome their own physical disabilities, I did all that I could do in a day to ensure that everybody that I knew needed help got it. I became the man that I am and, guess what, (and do think about this very carefully) I cannot change my basic personality any more than you can decide to grow wings and fly.
You say that you feel that you are one of the happiest people you know - for crying out loud, Nick, don't you know that happiness is the one result everybody aspires to - and you have achieved it!
So, what can you be doing wrong?
Too much introspection?
Too much 'looking over the fence into the other man's yard and covetting his posessions?
Too little pride in what you have achieved?
Too little self respect?
Too little self confidence?
Too much attention to what others are telling the population in general and not listening to your own small voice that talks to you specifically?
Another thing for you to think about is that many miserable people are that way because they have worked at it all their lives - and succeeded. Yes - they are successes!
Nick, nobody on this earth can tell you what or if you are doing anything wrong but if you think that way and spend time looking for your errors, your life will slip away from you and you will never be sure that you turned over enough stones to find the maggott eating away at you.
Happy is a great start - don't spoil it.
Only you know what's best for you - that's why you are a big boy now!
The Old Coot