Hi Tim,
You dont' know me, but your story shares memories. In July of 2005 I lost my grandfather, and on Christmas 2005 I lost my grandmother...they were both my mother's parents.
By "just knowing" and through the grace of God, I was able to be by their sides when they died. My grandmother, especially, was a very hard loss on all of us; she was my confidant, and she was the glue that kept our family together through many hours of daily prayer. I am so grateful that I was by her side at 2:45am Christmas morning that year to be with her as she left this earth to be with the Lord.
I am thankful for all the things I did have with my grandparents and all the experiences we shared, both good and bad, because that's how you grow to be who you are now.
It was a blessing that they went to heaven when they did, because they were struggling and suffering, and my mom was exhausted from taking care of them and wanted to see them out of their misery.
At midnight Christmas Eve, we had sung Christmas carols, my parents and my sisters and me, and told my grandmother that it was okay to go, that there was a party waitning for her in heaven, that she was to be at Jesus' birthday.
It was so bittersweet. I can actually not think of any other way for my grandmother to go be with the Lord than how it did happen.
Our Christmas that year actually was okay. It was a little sad, but not what you would expect. We celebrated her life and our memories with her...it was comforting, just knowing that she now was at peace, with no more human aches and pains she had every day.
So Tim, I will pray that you too have this feeling of comfort for your father. It doesn't mean you don't cry anymore, because you do, but you know that he's where he belongs.
Take care and may God Bless you,
Marsha
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