I will be honest with everyone I feel like I am loosing my mind. I am in debt on my credit card, my ocd has hurted me in romance so many times, and the house I am living in is falling down. I hate my life right now and I feel like my head is going to explode from the stress. I have lost 30 pounds because I can not bring myself to eat. I am trying really hard not to say the words I want to die but I almost find myself saying it.

Hello Jonathan, Well first of all I would call your doctor, let him know of these feelings. It may be a side affect from your medications.Second get your bible and read it. you are suffering with things you have no control over and need to be looked at by professionals.I am here if you want to chat.kathy/simikathy.com

Dear Jonathan,

Sorry to hear you are depressed, but don't let debt get you down, everyone has been in debt at one time or another, and it isn't the end of the world.  The problems are not enough to give up, so you have to be strong and lay out a game plan to get your life back in order.  Certainly, medications can easil create depression, so as Kath suggests, this is the most important thing to take care of first.

Depression is a state of mind and you have to make a decision that you do not want to remain in this mindset, and if it is not medication related, then you are going through what we all have at one time or another, so don't let it get you down, it is only temporary situation.  Allowing yourself to express your feelings here is a great first step, so you are already on your way to eliminating your depression.  Talking to others is healing, so start with your doctor and know that you have people here who care, even stangers can relate to what you are going through, so keep the communications open, don't hold it in.  In short, hang in there as things always improve when you least expect it.

Regards, Mike

Hi Jonathan,

Here are wise words from one of my mentors.  Please absorb this to the best of your ability if you really want a change:

THIS IS IMPORTANT.

HOWEVER WE CHOOSE TO PERCEIVE OUR EXPERIENCE
WILL DETERMINE HOW MUCH POWER AND HAPPINESS
WE CREATE.

BY CHOOSING TO PERCEIVE YOURSELF AS A VICTIM, YOU
WILL FEEL POWERLESS AND SAD, WITH NO CHOICES
TO HELP YOU CHANGE YOUR LIFE.

BY CHOOSING TO PERCEIVE YOURSELF AS THE ONE
IN CHARGE OF YOUR LIFE, CREATING IT, YOU WILL
FEEL POWERFUL AND FREE, WITH CHOICES AVAILABLE
TO YOU TO CHANGE LIFE
INTO WHAT YOU WANT IT TO BE.

YOUR LIFE IS YOUR CHOICE.  AS A CHILD, YOU WERE
POWERLESS COMPARED TO THE ADULTS IN YOUR LIFE,
AND IN  THE ENVIRONMENT IN WHICH YOU WERE RAISED.
AS AN ADULT, YOU ARE FREE TO CREATE WHATEVER
YOU WANT.

HOW ARE YOU PERCEIVING YOUR LIFE?

WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE TO EXPERIENCE
MORE ABUNDANTLY?

IF YOU WANT TO KEEP EXPERIENCING LIFE AS A
VICTIM, KEEP PERCEIVING YOUR LIFE IN THAT WAY.

IF YOU WANT TO EXPERIENCE YOUR LIFE AS FREE AND
POWERFUL, PERCEIVE YOURSELF ALREADY THERE.

IT IS YOUR CHOICE!!

 

Johnathon:

First, I understand completely your feelings about debt. My education has left me with over $70,000 in debt -- and I went to school as a musician! You can imagine how hard it is to look at that much debt with the realities of the type of profession I've chosen. And it did crush me, and almost destroyed my marriage (ok, some of that is my wife's education too, but the biggest part of it is mine). It has kept us from getting a mortgage for a house, or buying a new car, or even just enjoying some of the things we really enjoy.

But as far as debt goes, there are only two things you can do: Spend less, or make more. That's it in a nutshell. If you are making enough to make your minimum payments, you can probably afford to find a few extra dollars a month to get beyond that and make better payments (usually by doing without things like meals out or movies, like we did).

I know your problem is with credit card debt, so maybe someone can offer to go in with you on this. There's a software package we've used successfully to put ourselves on a debt reduction plan. In fact, what it does is it sorts out all our bills, then determines the best way to pay them off in the shortest amount of time. Using this software, we put together a debt repayment plan that will reduce our repayment time from 72 years (no, I'm not joking!) to just six, without increasing the amount of our monthly payments. The cost for an individual is $39.95 (this is not a sales pitch...I get no commission for this...it's a genuine recommendation for a product that really does work). Here it is:

http://www.zilchworks.com/BuyNow.html

Now, as for your other problems, I've mentioned this before and I'll say it again: mental illness that gets to the point where it affects your work and relationships is nothing to be trifled with. You MUST see a professional. Now you've stopped eating, which is only going to spiral your problems (malnutrition has a serious impact on ALL system functions, not just your weight). Please please please see your doctor immediately. You sound like your condition is becoming quite serious, and you need help.