Dear friends, dear lovers of life, I am Isis. I am the bird that flies freely in the sky, enjoying both the energies of Heaven and of Earth. I am inside you all, so one day you will fly free of this body and be like a bird, traveling elsewhere in the universe.
Wherever you go, you have two energies inside you. One is the energy of joy, which keeps you moving forward, always finding new ways of expressing yourself, always seeking life and adventure. The energy of joy is the light inside you; it is truly what Creation is made of.
When you feel the energy of joy, truly feel it and become fulfilled; know there is nothing outside it that you are looking for. The energy of joy is a purpose in itself. It is the expression of life in its freest form and therefore you cannot capture it – joy is the essence of life.
But, as I said, there are two energies which you take with you. The energy of joy is one and the energy of darkness or pain is the other. Where there is darkness or pain, there is no joy, only its absence. It is the part of you that feels stuck, separated, and lonely. Nonetheless, it has a meaningful role to play within Creation.
The energy of joy and the energy of pain or darkness deeply belong together. Inside the darkness is always a craving for liberation, for life. Darkness yearns to be released, and when the energy of joy embraces it with acceptance and lightness, the darkness cannot resist and will open up. Everything that is dark, both within you and within the world, longs for life, longs for liberation.
I ask you to now connect with your own darkness and to not see it as an enemy. It is a part of Creation, it has meaning. As the joyful part of you seeks expression during many lifetimes throughout the universe, it crosses boundaries and discovers unknown territories. This very movement will create the energies of fear, insecurity, and ignorance, and you are then confronted with pain and suffering.
Nonetheless, somewhere behind this suffering is the energy of joy. There is such a lust for life in your heart and your soul that at a deep level you are willing to engage with the suffering. Because you are so full of love, the joy enables you to explore life deeply and always go beyond boundaries and into new adventures.
I now ask that you connect inside your body with the dark areas which cause you trouble, or where you feel a heavy energy, or where you connect with an emotion that is continually bothering you and that you consider to be negative and blocking you. And now imagine that you see this particular area or emotion as an energy that is waiting to be released.
You can look at it in this way: this dark energy inside you is a pioneer of consciousness; it is the part of you that is moving beyond what you consider safe. It is exploring something new that you do not yet understand and therefore gives you confusion and perhaps sadness or struggle. But it is because you are such an adventurous spirit that you are willing to accept the darkness and to deal with it.
So I ask that you see the darkest part of yourself – the part that is struggling – as your most revolutionary part that is uncovering new experiential territory. I invite you to visualize this part – this difficult emotion or that physical problem – as a warrior. Visualize this part as a warrior in whatever way you like. See it as a male presence, and look at the fire in his eyes. He is wounded, but at the same time he is a deeply creative part of you.
Now imagine or visualize the joyful part of you and see it in the shape of a female figure, a woman. She is dancing, singing, feeling free and light, but she wants to join the warrior. She has a deep yearning to be with him and to embrace him, because she knows that he is the adventurer and will open up new territories to explore. And she will follow him and embrace him with her healing powers and her spirit of joy and laughter.
So imagine the two of them coming together: the hurt and wounded part of you and the joyful and free part. Imagine them embracing; you can feel that they deeply love each other.
The words “light” and “dark” have become associated with good and bad, with judgment, but these energies are much more playful and far-reaching than such a narrow framework would allow. Both these energies are full of life and together form the essence of Creation. So imagine these energies merging and feel this in your heart and in your abdomen.
The heart is the seat of love and joy, while the abdomen is the seat of passion and emotion, and, therefore, also of emotional pain. The heart desires to descend and to embrace the energy in the abdomen and this is what true healing means: that you embrace the dark emotions and desires within yourself and recognize them as your partners in Creation, and not as an energy you need to get rid of, but as an essential part of you.
Darkness plays a vital role in your lives, and exploring that role is why you are here, why you have incarnated in this flesh. When the emotions – the so-called lower nature of yourself as a human – become inspired by the energy of the heart, the energy of joy and fearlessness, then true creativity arises. By that I mean you will experience a kind of creativity within you that is grounded and real and that you can truly express in your everyday life.
Some people have a lot of loving energy in their hearts and so they are able to connect with the energy of joy at those times when they feel inspired. But because the emotions of the lower region of their abdomen feel stuck or blocked, and because they do not know how to deal with these emotions, these people are unable to fully release and express their joy and inspiration in practical ways. They start to feel disconnected from this world, from Earth, and from human society.
The key to overcoming this lack of connection is to really address the parts of yourself that are in need of emotional healing. Inspiration alone is not enough; you need to recognize the darkness within yourself as your partner and not as a block that needs to be eliminated. It is by embracing and working with your own darkness that spiritual alchemy takes place: true transformation.
Often when you “work on yourself” – for example, in therapy or different modes of healing – you are still struggling with your darkness, because you are very eager to find ways to get rid of it. But behind this eagerness is a disrespect for the vital role that darkness fulfills in the universe. You are not playing or dancing with these energies; instead, you are struggling with them and, in the end, this can exhaust you because it takes a lot of energy to struggle with yourself.
To genuinely start the healing process, you need to release the notion of a struggle or a battle between light and dark within yourself. Really respect the dark parts; even your violent, aggressive parts are not intrinsically bad. If you address these parts with compassion and the sincere yearning to reach into their essence in order to fully understand what they are really about, they will listen to you; they will come to you as would a child.
It is the energy of judgment and resistance that intensifies darkness, whereas it is the energy of acceptance and joy that always creates unification.
This dynamic process is something that is unfolding, not only at the level of your personal lives, you can also witness it in the world at large in which you are living. Throughout your religious traditions, there has been an immense fear of darkness, passion, creativity, and free self-expression.
Out of fear, there has developed a need to control the human spirit. And the sad thing is that, as a result, there has been not only a fear of darkness, but also a fear of joy. The energy of joy has not been welcome in human societies for a very long time.
It may seem strange to say this, because everyone on Earth agrees that all human beings want to be happy, but your notions of happiness have become so restricted, so narrow, that they leave no space for the energy of joy. Joy is ever flowing, it cannot live inside rigid structures and hierarchies, or obey false authorities; joy is a truly revolutionary energy.
Joy has often been expressed in the arts: in literature, poetry, and music, and most people who surrender to the flow of joy in their life will become outsiders. They will feel that they are different and do not fit in with mainstream consciousness.
There are certain definitions of happiness in your society, but most of them are to some extent controlling. For instance, earning money is supposed to make you happy, having a successful career is supposed to make you happy, getting married and having a family is a goal that many people pursue, but as you all know and observe around you, all these things do not guarantee happiness.
You can find happiness in all these things, but the essential part of that happiness is something inside you. Nothing outside you can make it happen. True happiness means that you feel you are embodying the spirit of joy; that you have become friends with the dark parts of yourself and are free to explore life.
The theme of our gathering, here and now, is the return of Isis, and I am waiting for you to open up to my spirit and to find the fountain of joy inside your heart and, at the same time, to embrace the darkness within. And that is actually one movement, one flow.
Dance with life; dance with whatever life is bringing to you. Try not to judge it, to label it as good or bad; life is far too rich and mysterious to be approached in that way. You really liberate yourself if you stop doing that.
Very briefly put, there are two ways of opening up to the Isis energy, and this is what is now happening all around the world. Either you decide to open up to this energy consciously and freely or you get so caught up in crisis and suffering that you go through a really difficult time or become ill, and then you will have to open up to the spirit of life, either in this lifetime or in another one.
At this moment on Earth, things are intensifying. There is a huge need for liberation, for releasing the heavy energies inside people. Energies always move, they are dynamic, and there is such an accumulation of pain and suffering in humanity that this energy has to rise to the surface and express itself. It is like something explosive: it needs expression at some point.
The more conscious people become, the more this healing process of release can happen in a balanced way. The more you address darkness with deep understanding, the milder its expression will be. But this will not be possible all round the world. There will be expressions of deep pain and aggression that can be really hurtful to others.
I am asking you, even in the face of very violent expressions of pain, to remain in the space of compassion. Compassion does not judge, it simply observes. You may feel sad about the lack of awareness in the world, the presence of fear and misunderstanding and the lack of communication; but I am asking of you: if you want to preserve my spirit, if you want to pass it on to others, do not judge the darkness; be still and keep the space inside your heart open.
What holds you all together as living beings is your humanness. You all are made up of light and darkness, of joy and pain. And when we deeply understand this about each other, and dare to communicate freely about it with one another, then true healing will arise. It is unavoidable, because things cannot stay as they are.
Please travel lightly, do not hold on to the burdens of the past. You are an explorer of the new, you are an adventurer. Work together with the warrior inside you. It is a wounded warrior, but a brave one, and he is yearning for my embrace, the embrace of joy andlight and laughter.
I am Isis, I am inside you.
© Pamela Kribbe
www.jeshua.net