My heartfelt thank you goes to Marty ( ) for beginning this open forum with me. It takes a lot of courage to talk about something so personal.
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Depression is an ugly illness that affects a person emotionally, physically and spiritually. Unless you've suffered with it, its hard to understand. Its the reason why so many say, "Just get over it." If only it were that easy.
Depression is more than just having a "blue" day. Its a deep, black hole that engulfs your whole being. There is little in the way of joy. If the person is on medication, the joylessness is even more pronounced.
Some people like I was, have an inate ability to hide it. The mask they wear hides the deep seated pain they feel. Often, the diagnosis comes from the person appearing slovenly. Because, I always took pride in my appearance, doctors weren't able to "see" it, therefore it didn't exist. Not even when I was suicidal, did they see it.
There are many professionals, who go to work on a daily basis appearing normal, all the while feeling like they're dying inside. Sadly, too often the day comes when there is a breaking point. Hitting bottom is almost ineveitable, but in many cases it may take years before it happens. Hitting bottom often results in an attempted suicide. The stats are high for successful ones.
There is help, but YOU need to talk and if nobody is listening, you need to keep talking until somebody takes you seriously.
This forum will be for anyone who suffers from depression, anxiety, panic attacks or any other emotional issue. It will also be for those who live with someone who suffers. Depression doesn't just affect the person who suffers, it affects everybody around them.
Its time to put away the masks. Let's talk ... let's help relieve the suffering. You and your families are not alone.
Sincerely,
Terry