Hi Kathy-
Your timing was perfect because I was sad all weekend thinking about my life as a dad. My boy was pretty much kidnapped by my ex and taken to her country(denmark) when he was 3 1/2 yrs. old. He is 10 now. I saw him once for a couple of weeks when he was 5 when I went over there. He hardly speaks english so when I would call, he did not want to come to the phone and when he did, I would talk and listen to him breathe. I have always sent letters, emails, birthday and Christmas presents, but I would only hear back from his mother after Christmas. Never a fathers day card or anything. I know in my heart he loves me and really place the blame on the ex. I have not heard his voice or anything at all for about a year. To my suprise, friday I got a big postcard written by him in english telling me he misses me and loves me. I was happy to receive it but it makes me sad to think that he might have some pain in his heart wondering why his dad is not there and that kills me. I think he is reaching the age where now this (me not being in his life) is bothering him. Maybe now things will change. I love him and miss him so much that sometimes I just wish I could hug him and not let go. I want to hug him while he still a little boy but time keeps on passing and he gets older. Maybe things will change now that he has reached out to me. For me, trying to be a good dad has and still is painful. If I had the money, I would have been able to visit much more except when she( the ex) did all this to me, she took me to the cleaners and my house got forclosed and so on and so forth, so all these years later believe it or not, I am still broke. Ok now I'm whining too much so I will stop. Thank you Kathy for all you do.
Andy Bryant
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