Roger, The thought and acceptance that I have been writing a journal of my life came to me last night.
I have tried to keep a diary when I was back in NZ but was more afraid that a member of my family would read it so I had to be careful of what I wrote in there.
Writing poetry, I can be a little obscure if I need to, whereby others reading may not completely know what I am talking about. But I do and this is what the object of me writing is for me and when others get enjoyment too that is wonderful.
I will pop over to your Stress forum and share the poetry journal idea.
Yes, I have been through the gristmill with my past pets. when pets have died.. I have had to choose between twin lambs to give one away. A horse having to be put down after I fed him hay and he got colic so badly - if only the people I got him from had told me. I only had him for a couple of months and I felt guilty. The many tomcats we had and could have kept longer if my Dad would have had them spayed. I started to harden my heart for quite a number of years because I did not want to let pets get to close because it hurt when something happened to them. But I have learned to be loved by a pet and to love a pet - it is better to love and lost than to never have loved at all. Animals love is unconditional, they either like you or they don't and when they do, they are all over you and it is trust. My Harmony, was so aloof when we got her that she would walk away from you when I went to get near her. After 2 years of being here with us, she comes up to us and looks for a pat and her sweetfeed grains. She has come 360o with us. I think she did not get any attention at her last home.
Amanda
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