OUR SUBCONSCIENCE DOESN`T KNOW FOR THE HUMOROUS - SAGA ABOUT SERBIAN ELECTIONS AND BELGRADE`S ENVIRONMENT
Friends,
I am scared how my introduction in topic can be longer than a full story. But ... I cann`t help myself for having to type that much .... but also cann`t help you, for needed efforts to understand what I meant.
My 30 years of life I lived in Socialistic Federative Republic of Yugoslavia. I was the youngster member of Communist Party in my region EVER. When I was 15 years old, I became proposed member of that Party. That was a big honor .... but much bigger courageous was needed to don`t accept to be such honored :) . In my nineteenth they approved me to gave up ... because I was too poetic (read: to naive and too honest). I was an atheist. Loved and knew by heart Friedrich Nietzsche, Kierkegaard-Schopenhauer-Kant-Fichte-Shelling-Hegel-Ernst Bloch-Sartre. Was very advanced in all matters, and my region was very proud of me.
Being imprisoned in my 30th, without ANY CHANCE to prove my innocence, I have called up Nobody (nichil) to help me - but found God ... Never stop thanking Him for the rescue and mercy. I found God - but was too scared, too primitive and suffered a lot due luck of getting to know even a tradition ... My first days of having the faith in God, were a kind of a puritanical terror against myself. Starting to read spiritual books (from my Orthodox Christian Church) I really became too close to really lose my mind. Fortunately, I found Joseph Murphy`s "The Power of Subconscience". Great! I became a normal again, and this great metaphysician helped me to start thinking, and to be able to understand.
My own changes went parallel with the changes at the society.
First, to say attempt, to have democratic elections, resulted with bloody civil war.
I came to Serbia at the middle of 1991. From then to now ... there were a countless elections. Each year - one or two ... And political scene looks like
THE LANDFILL WITH HAZARDOUS WASTE :(
Mornings, noons, evenings, days, months, years ... those stubborn fighters for their piece of cake in the governmental structures ... didn`t chose weapons. As my own defense, I just cherished my wish to be stopped by any journalist at the street, and to be asked for my opinion ... I wished just to say how I cann`t be more terrified with that LANDFILL WITH THE HAZARDOUS WASTE OF OUR POLITICAL SCENE ...
This wish was cherished 11 full years .... my wish to speak of LANDFILL WITH THE HAZARDOUS WASTE ...
HM!
In 2002 I have had an apartment near one big building. Some company built something ... stopped... continued .... stopped .... and our environment was unpleasant to see for a log time .
It was a Holiday of Labor, May the first. I always wake up very early and that holiday morning found myself as a lonely walker at the street. After a long walk, coming near my apartment, one young gentleman asked me if I can dedicate him a little time.
"I am a journalist from Radio Belgrade 92. Would you be so kind to discuss with me, just in a few words, about THAT LANDFILL WITH, SOME PEOPLE SAY, HAZARDOUS WASTE .... "
I felt DUMB ! And really figured out THAT SUBCONSCIENCE DOESN`T KNOW FOR HUMOROUS! My many time repeated wish was fulfilled - but at the wrong place.
Today I started this gathering of laughing terrorists here, and wished to propose you to be the founders of "The Krebs Cycles & Terrorism of The Laughter and Good Will " but at the moment was reminded of that my experience, without a courageous to test the subconscience, how will manifest terrorism and laughter and a good will together.
Looking forward to hear your opinion :)
Love,
Branka
Branka