Personality chameleon?
For the past year or so, I've noticed something disturbing going on with my "public personality"... how I act in school. I feel like how I act depends totally on the person, or people, I'm with. With person A I'll be serious and uptight (and yelling at myself the whole time to STOP). With person B I'm funny and alive, and I like that, but with person C I'll be this giggly, desperate-sounding, bad copy of an extreme extrovert. Even when I'm with my closest friends at lunch, I feel like I'm putting on an act--like I'm a shell of my real self.
The thing is, when I'm with my friends at the movies or their houses, I feel completely natural (outgoing, quirky, calm, interesting things to say, funny). But the balance is thrown off again when "friendish" people are around.
You're probably going to say that I'm afraid of being judged. But honestly, I don't give a damn what person A, B, or C think of me; plus, I already have enough friends to feel "secure."
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