Tapping Transcription:
I Just Want To Run Away
Side of the Hand: Even though I just want to run away,
I choose to love and accept myself.
Even though I just want to run away,
I choose to love and forgive myself.
Even though I just want to run away…
There are things out there
that don't feel safe.
So I just want to take a nap,
crawl under the covers,
and wait for things to pass by.
And if other people don't appreciate me,
that gives me a really good reason
to just go back to bed.
Why should I get up and face the world?
No one appreciates me anyway.
And even though I just want to run away,
I choose to deeply and completely
love and forgive and accept myself
and anyone else
who contributes to this belief.
Eyebrow Point: No one appreciates me.
Side of the Eye: No one appreciates me,
Under the Eye: except me.
Under the Nose: I know I'm a magnificent child of God.
Under the Mouth: I know that I have gifts and talents.
Collarbone: I know that I'm here for a reason
Under the Breast: and that I make a difference
Under the Arm: and I have a lot to offer,
Top of the Head: but God forgot to let other people know that.
EB: No one has the ability to appreciate me.
SE: I'm like a refrigerator maker
UE: at the south pole.
UN: I'm really good at what I do,
UM: but I'm trapped in a world
CB: where no one can appreciate what I have to offer
UB: so I might as well just go back to bed.
UA: And how does this serve me?
TH: What am I so afraid of?
EB: Is it really a vicious circle?
SE: I'm afraid people don't appreciate me,
UE: so that gives me an excuse to run away
UN: from a world where no one appreciates me.
UM: Or is there something else I'm afraid of?
CB: What happened to me in the past
UB: that has made me so afraid?
UA: All this old fear.
TH: All these times in the past
EB: where I wasn't appreciated,
SE: where I did things
UE: that I thought were pretty darn good
UN: but I didn't get the appreciation I wanted.
UM: I didn't get the validation I thought I needed.
CB: I waited for someone else
UB: to tell me I was good enough.
UA: And I believe
TH: I need that outside validation
EB: because if I'm working,
SE: I need somebody to pay me.
UE: What's the point of doing great work
UN: if I don't get paid?
UM: Aye, there's the rub.
CB: Maybe
UB: where I choose to focus
UA: might be on doing the good work
TH: and being satisfied with that.
EB: And as I allow myself to feel really good about it,
SE: I let go of the resentment.
UE: I let go of the neediness.
UN: I let go of the fear.
UM: I'm doing great work.
CB: Whether I'm doing it for myself or someone else,
UB: whether it's something I'm doing at present
UA: or something I've done in the past,
TH: I'm appreciating myself.
EB: I'm appreciating myself.
SE: I'm appreciating myself.
UE: I choose to know
UN: that when I do really good work
UM: the universe notices.
CB: And the reaction may not be instantaneous,
UB: but I'm letting go of the need
UA: for outside validation.
TH: If I were a painter,
EB: it would be really frustrating
SE: if I painted one painting
UE: and sat on the sidewalk with it
UN: and waited for someone to come pay me a lot of money
UM: before I could appreciate the painting
CB: or before I could do another one.
UB: I'm not going to do anything else good until...
UA: Until someone appreciates what I've already done
TH: and I'm letting go of that.
EB: I choose to be the artist I am
SE: and do all the good that I can
UE: and paint my little bippy off
UN: so that when someone does come along
UM: and says, "Hey that painting is beautiful."
CB: I can say,
UB: "And I've got a ton more like it."
UA: The gifts and talents I have
TH: are here for a reason.
EB: I'm not trapped in a world
SE: where no one else can appreciate me.
UE: I'm allowing myself to know
UN: that it's safe to be appreciated.
UM: Maybe I've been afraid of that in the past.
CB: Maybe if I was appreciated in the past,
UB: it set up expectations
UA: and that wasn't comfortable.
TH: It seemed so much safer
EB: when people didn't appreciate me.
SE: And how many people are there
UE: that have wanted to appreciate me
UN: but I didn't open the door for them?
UM: I didn't allow that.
CB: I kept that door firmly locked
UB: while sitting on the other side
UA: saying, "Nobody appreciates me."
TH: I have my mailbox sealed shut
EB: and complain that nobody sends me a thank you note.
SE: I have my home soundproofed
UE: and complain that I can't hear anyone saying thank you.
UN: I'm just not allowing it,
UM: and I'm releasing the blocks to that.
CB: I'm allowing myself to be appreciated,
UB: first by myself.
UA: And since the outside world is a reflection of what's going on inside,
TH: I choose to look in the mirror
EB: and see that gratitude.
SE: Allowing myself to be appreciated.
UE: Releasing any remaining blocks to that.
UN: Releasing the past issues about that.
UM: Taking pride in good work for its own sake.
CB: Allowing myself to be validated by myself
UB: and opening the doors
UA: for outside appreciation
TH: as I set myself joyfully free.
Take a deep breath… and a drink of water.
Brad Yates