Dear sweet ladies,
Confusion is to be expected if we only receive the truth as others see it.
I was brought up as a Church of England christian. When a King for various reasons found that the church in Rome wouldn't let him marry and other demands he broke away from Rome and made himself the head of the new church. How can that church really hold credibility, there again, how can a church that murdered, plotted and lied through it's infamous Popes claim that their leader is chosen by God and is infalible.
No ladies. Sweep away your confusion. Even your churches don't have all of the truth either.
If you wish to follow a christian way of life then find others who share your wider beliefs. Live your life as you do, by being kind and thoughtful and MOST OF ALL understanding. I don't believe in a God that will punish you for what you either didn't know or understand.
Anyone on this planet who thinks that he has all the answers is deluded.
Your native Americans had beliefs that stemmed from their closeness to nature but later many accepted christianity but kept their other beliefs.
I quote that old adage often.
Moderation in all things.
Boring but so true and it also has it's equivalent in spiritual matters too. We should always be aware that others might seek to drag us to their cause or belief.
I always illustrate the traditions of a church in this way.
If I start a new church tomorrow along with five others and we sit around eating biscuits and drinking coffee, then, a hundred years from now, somewhwere on the planet people meet around five leaders and share coffee and biscuits IN HIS NAME. Why, because people need identity. Even your church or mine are guilty of this or similar. Is it bad? No. but it gives a church some control and identity.
I love and respect you and I hope that this helps.
Roger