Dear friends,
I greet you all from the heart of the Christ energy. I speak from the Christ energy that moves within you and takes you into a different kind of reality, into a field of collective consciousness that differs from the current consciousness on Earth.
You are different from the mass of humanity. You are the pioneers of a new age, and you are searching to create a path through new territory. The work you are doing is important and requires a lot from you. You create energetic tracks for others to follow toward a new form of consciousness.
We know it is a lonely road. On it, you encounter fears that you do not know how to handle well. Also, because you belong to a vanguard, a group of pioneers, you can not fall back on anything familiar. You are showing society a new way, and so you can not rely on old structures. You are brave and courageous, yet at the same time you encounter dark doubts on this lonely path to something new. In order to make clear where you came from, and how you arrived on this path, I will take you back to a distant past.
I would like to take you back to the period of paradise that is referred to in the Bible as the Garden of Eden where lived the first humans, Adam and Eve. I ask you to let go of everything your tradition has told you about this period and place. In that garden, there was so much life that germinated and sought new forms. All kinds of forms developed in the plant and animal kingdoms, as well as in the rock and mineral kingdoms, and you were there in that garden. The Earth was abundant and full of life and you were part of that, not as human beings, but as ethereal beings in the form of angels. You hovered as angels over the Earth, and with your thought forms, you inspired her to become fruitful.
How did you go about doing that? You yourselves were on a path; you had taken on an adventure. In your angel essence, there was an urge to explore, a curiosity about journeying into the new. So at some point in your long journey you arrived on planet Earth. You felt that something new was beginning here, something special, something rich. As an angel being you felt attracted to the Earth. It gave you a happy feeling to be able to be here and to explore the possibilities present here. So it was that as you moved around on Earth, you were attracted to enter into a stone or a plant or a tree, or into a bird. You carefully imbued these material forms with your consciousness, and you dived in and out of them.
Had you been able to laugh, you would have done that, too, but you did not yet have a body with which to do it. You were as children: playful, full of confidence, full of love. You felt invited to take part in a great creation process that was taking place on Earth; you were co-creators of that reality. Can you sense how grand that moment was, that whole period when you were involved with Earth and the process of creation? You sent your energy toward the Earth: light energy that inspired the material forms on Earth to grow into all kinds of living beings. This evolution was influenced from without by the ethereal, angel beings that you were.
At some point, you decided to experience, from within, these creatures made of matter, so you made the decision to become a part of Earth. You actually chose to incarnate in a dense form, a body, and to stay in it from birth to death. This was quite a big leap in your evolution. A lot of time transpired during that process and I now omit many of the steps involved. But there came a time when you wanted to experience what it was like to be embodied as a human. After you had practiced with the bodies of other life forms, the culmination of that process came as incarnation in human bodies.
It is important that you imagine and understand how the angel being in you is light and flowing, flexible and free, and how it knows no scarcity. An angel lives from abundance and has little experience of resistance. It goes to the places, to the realities, where it feels it is invited. It follows its heart without effort and without doubt, and always discovers and experiences new things. So when you stepped into human bodies, new emotions of misunderstanding and inexperience certainly emerged with the life in this new material form, and that experience was new, also.
With your inquisitive, open mind, you took in everything. But over time – and here again I am speaking about very long periods of time – you lost part of your light. Part of the freedom you had known as an angel became veiled by life in matter. All of a sudden, you began to experience reality limited by a body: with your eyes, you see one thing; with your nose, you smell another; with your hands, you feel this or that. All those senses result in a fragmented sense of reality. The experience of the world felt very different coming through an earthly consciousness, a human consciousness. The ever-present light was then no longer easily accessible and tangible for you. However, you always carried a memory of that light within yourself, even as you went farther on the journey into incarnation: manifesting yourself in matter, in a body, and in this way building, working, and living in a new energetic reality.
You all have reached the deepest point of your incarnation process and you are now on a path of return. That deepest point also represents the darkest point. There comes a time when the soul becomes so submerged in matter that it no longer knows its original angel being, no longer feels it. It thinks the physical reality is all there is: “I am my body, I am my brain. My thinking, my doing, my acting is guided from matter, not from spirit.” As a result, you can also begin to feel powerless, sad, and distressed. Things can become meaningless, because you no longer feel guidance; you no longer have a sense of being imbued with that inner light that is your Home, your origin and source.
There comes a time in every soul’s journey when you reach the farthest possible point away from your angel self. Feel for a moment how you know this from your own experience. That place where you know: “I have touched the farthest point and time. I have come to know the deepest darkness, and this is part of my journey, of my exploration, of my adventure. This is not bad or good; this is simply how it is.” You are now working your way back.
However, in the process of ex-incarnating, in leaving the densest parts of matter, you have trouble getting free from the darkness and the fears that you encounter within yourself, which have come about because you felt rejected by your inner light, by who you essentially are. I encourage you to look deeply at those fears. It is now time to step out of those fears, time to let them go. They have served you in their own way and you have learned much from them.
The Christ consciousness is none other than that of having tasted and experienced all the facets of being in matter. From this experience emerges an understanding and compassion for all that is, breathes, and feels. To know this from within all life's facets is inner wealth. You have done all this, although you are still working with it.
This is a time of change and transition, and you are among the first to struggle through it. Particularly in the field of work – where you are in contact with society and with all the collective ideas and thought patterns that exist there – this is exactly where you encounter yourself. On the one hand, because you want to go down a different path and, on the other hand, it is there where those old fears are triggered.
Your past has taught you a lot about what is “good” and what is “bad”, about what can be and what can not be. Yet the only thing that is really good for you, what leads you to your destiny, is the inner voice of authentic being. Being authentic means to listen to yourself and to not be distracted by all the information that is coming your way from “out there”, which tells you what to do and what not to do. The "secret" that alludes you is that your thinking and your fears are also information from “out there” and do not come from your deepest core, from your inner knowing. It is all external information.
As soon as you truly begin to know that you are not your fears, that you are not your inner judgments, then your awareness shifts. You are then centered in the seat of your heart, in the core of your being. The sun that you are has always been there, but is now truly embodied in matter from where it wants to radiate outward. It wants to once again inspire the Earth with its light, but now in an actual, tangible sense of the word – from matter in a body. Not as an etheric angel, but as a human being, an incarnate angel.
This is the light you have come here to bring. This is the meaning of being a lightworker. That you find your origin amidst an earthly reality that is involved in a struggle, where there exist many fears, blockages, and judgments. You become free when you identify with that angel within you. And to that end, I would like to offer you some alternative approaches.
On Earth, you have been trained in thinking and doing – to the extreme. From an early age your education has focused on outward manifestations: What can you do? What can you produce? How well can you put things into words, conceptualize, categorize, and label? These are all external constructs. Thinking and doing are essentially earthly instruments to bring outward expression to your soul’s energy. These instruments should serve your soul’s energy, but what often happens is that your soul’s energy is veiled or suppressed by these instruments. If thinking is considered important in and of itself, without finding nourishment from the heart, from the intuition, then it begins to lead a life of its own. It becomes chaotic and panic-stricken, because thinking by itself does not possess unity. Many thought processes can run through you at the same time – information from several sources – thus resulting in fragmented energy.
The only thing that can truly unite is the heart. Thoughts are useful and functional, as they help to make your soul’s energy flow outward. The same applies to actions, but there reigns in your society a kind of obsession with doing. You are always working on things. You think that a lot can be achieved through action, and you are disappointed when it turns out that this brings you to a dead end. What I mean by that is that you are often taught to act tooquickly, and to not follow the rhythm of your soul: that inner knowing that some things proceed more slowly and require more time to develop than simply thinking and acting. The outer demands ask of you to accomplish something quickly, to achieve something now, to perform sooner rather than later.
There are all those requirements and rules that “must be done”, but they all are control mechanisms trying to take charge of life. Life is no longer being inspired by the fluid, agile energy of the angel of your higher self. And so in this way, the angel gets stuck in the processes of thinking and doing. You sense this when you become frustrated, when things do not work out. It becomes even more difficult when there is external information that says: “You have to work harder – to do your best”. Or, you have to set new rules for yourself, such as: “Be more disciplined”. That is the way the solutions from the head work, but that is not where the true solution lies. That solution does not lie in structures, in planning, and in thinking. That solution, that answer, lies within, in the source of your being. From there springs everything.
Make friends with thinking and doing, but do not allow them to dictate everything. Find moments where you experience calm, when you allow the thoughts and actions to be silent. Try not to obsess over results – follow your heart. If it tells you that you feel like it is time to do something, do it. If it tells you not to do such and such, listen to that voice. You see that way of responding in children. They follow the natural flow so much more easily than do adults. That is why, as a parent or teacher, you feel that children can sometimes be stubborn and annoying. But they follow their natural flow, their natural rhythm. A child learns in its own time and at its own pace. It creates things from within its own being.
That was also the case for the angel being that you were originally, in that Garden of Eden in that ancient time. You were as playful and free as a child, and you created wonders. It was magical. And if you had asked such an angel: “How do you do it? How do you know what you have to do?” Then such an angel would have said: “I do nothing, I just play. I do what comes to me, what inspires me”. And yet from such an inner wisdom and love the angel knew its way. All this is also present in you – now. The only purpose of the exercises we do here is to help you wake up. You are that angel self; give free rein to that angel. Find times when you can feel that playfulness, that joy. In that way, your energy starts to flow again.
When you are caught up in "things", and you feel frustrated, anxious, or despondent, you are stuck in “thinking” and “doing”; a “doing” that has become stagnant. When your thoughts follow a pattern such as: “I have to do this, but I can’t seem to make it work”, you are stuck in the “doing” mode. What needs to happen is to cast off both those energies – the thinking and the doing, along with the compulsion that is inherent in them, so as to be free of them and to get back to that child within yourself, the angel being.The child and the angel are connected.
I ask you to now experience this feeling while we sit here, every person simply being themselves without their own collection of problems or questions. My energy is here with you all. I want to ask you to rely on this angel consciousness within yourself. It will lead the way to where you can find your own freedom and feel: “I'm here of my own volition. I'm a master in the depths of my being. I create this adventure for myself and I will receive all I need – "I am complete". Say “Yes” to this consciousness and view your fears and doubts from this inner place within yourself.
Keep in mind that garden, that paradise, in which you once lived, and believe that you can bring that energy into the here and now. You can work wonders, but you do not have to know how. Just open to that inner consciousness that you have carried with you forever and allow all things to happen – spontaneously and naturally.
Thank you so much.
© Pamela Kribbe
Translation by Maria Baes and Frank Tehan
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