I'd like to be able to get this message out to as many people as possible who may be suffering from mental illness or have loved ones who are going through this. Don't let anyone tell you that you're any less of a person because of your illness. You're just as loved by God as anyone else and you have to learn to love yourself and accept that your illness is not a punishment or a put down. In most cases it's simply a fluke in our chemistry. Some chemical in your body is out of place and it causes you to have symptoms like hearing voices or acting out of turn. And medication can help to keep you more stable and help you to not have the phobia or feel nervous and anxious or depressed. But it also takes you going deep inside yourself and finding out what or who gave you these misplaced ideas about yourself. For years I felt like I was a freak and that I must have done something wrong to deserve to have these problems. Psychotherapy did very little to help me. It wasn't until I realized that it was chemical and not just mental that I was able to figure out what was causing it all. Looking back on when I was pregnant and when I had my babies and seeing that within the first two weeks was when the problems were usually coming up I was able to discern that it was a hormone problem. With you it might be something else, maybe an allergic reaction to caffeine, or lactose or sugar diabetis..it could be any number of things. But I'm convinced that mental illnesses are caused by physical reactions to substances we take into our bodies or reactions to our outside environments and not something that we just have because we're bad people. It starts somewhere. We're not born this way, unless of course it's retardation brought on by being dropped on our heads at birth or something like that... Something outside of us causes this. And once we dig deep and find the cause we can start to find ways to deal with it. The medical community and pharmacuetical companies would have you believe that you are destined to take drugs for the rest of your life..but that's not true. If they cure you, they're losing money. Your psychiatrist doesn't want you to be cured. That would mean he would lose a client. And the drug companies would have you taking drugs for life. But if you do things that help you, like visiting friends, keeping yourself busy, and not vegetating and just letting life pass you by, you'll find that you're getting better. And sometimes the drugs will just make you worse. I'm not telling people to stop taking their medicine, so don't think that at all. I'm just saying that in combination with the medicine you need to do other things and you need to have a good diet of nutricious food and drink plenty of water, get plenty of rest and get with people who love and care about you. Most mental health facilities have a day treatment program where you can go and be with other people, learn to be self sufficient, cook meals, go on outings and get out of the house for several hours a day. This is one thing that helped me more than any hospitalization or any medication I took. Don't give up on getting people to listen to you. And learn the truth about yourself. Learn to listen and speak less. And do some research about your illness. Find out what the underlying causes are. Then get to the bottom of it and nip it in the butt. It can be done. There is hope for you. Don't give up. Sincerely, Rebecca Beasley Here's a site that you might want to use for your research. whole foods are often a great thing to help you balance out your life. http://healthybiz.wholefoodfarmacy.com

Hello Rebecca Once again, I thank you for your wonderful post. I happen to agree whole heartedly with what you have said here. I have been studying mental illness for a long time aqnd I really don't see much evidence of people being born with depression or schizophrenia and bipolr illness. I believe that it is a combination of things that all come together that causes mental illness as well as physical illness. We all know that there is much in our enviroment that can harm us. Just based on what we are actually permitted to know about there is cause for alarm. The recent legislation just passed through congress on Dec. 26 , 2,005, also known to insiders as Fristmas Day, is proof that there is a lot of covering up and big money exchanging hands where it comes to the drug companies and the government. Fristmaqs Day came about as the result of Sen. Bill Frist's relentless efforts to get legislaton passed that would protect the pharmacuetical companies from any liability for any damages caused by the drugs that they manufacture. This came about mostly because of the connection between Autism and Thimirosal. Thimirosal is a mercury based preservative that has been used in childhood vaccinations for many years now and recently it has been determined that it causes autism. The government and the drug companies haqve been covering this up for many years but now that the drug companies are off the hook, the evidence is litterally pouring out of the research centers. I suspect that we will find similar situationsonce we begin to understand more abouit the causes and cures for mental illness. If you really want to tell everybody about what you know to be the truth about mental illness, i have posted information in my various forums on how to get a hold of every politician in the country. I have posted information on the voting records of members of congress. I have basically made it very east for anyone to jump right in there and do all they can to fight against the big business, corrupt government link. I you can't find it in one of my forums just let me know inb this forum and I will post all again right here for you. Thank You once again for visiting my forum and I wish you all of the very best that bthis old world has to offer. May a smile follow you to sleep each night,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, and be there waiting,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, when you awaken. Sincerly, Bill Vanderbilt Mental Health And Political Forums http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=8212 http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=9637 http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=8259 http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=13254 http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=11791 Business Forums http://wv0079721.betteruniverse.com http://www.ourpowerforcedmatrix.com/team.php?UID=10561

Thanks Bill. I hope that one day the truth reigns over all this covering up and falsehood we're living with. I just lost my husband of 23 years to this type of problem. He had a brain tumor and underwent biopsy surgery on the 15th of December just two weeks after heart surgery. They had to take him off his blood thinner meds to do the biopsy and it wasn't disclosed to us what the risks were in doing this. Then only 3 days after the surgery when he wasn't in his right mind, they released him AMA from the hospital. He hid his blood soaked pillow in the closet under some old clothes and I never knew until it was two late that he was having a major brain bleed. They released him without even checking to see if there was any swelling. He died two days after that from a catch 22 situation between his heart and his brain when he had a massive coronary thrombosis and stroke on the way to the hospital. Now they're trying to cover this up and claim that he would have died anyway, which might be so, but they still should be held responsible for him from the time they released him at least until he left the hospital. When we picked him up he was wondering around the parking lot in 8 degree weather and was very confused. I wish that I could have known what was happening. I might have taken him directly to another hospital that might have saved his life. But we trusted them when they said he was ok and took him on home. I have very little faith now in the medical community as a whole. I doubt that I'll ever trust a doctor again after this. Becky

Hi Rebecca, {{{HUGGS}}}} Hi my name is Ally, I am a mother of 4 beautifil children. I too just ended a marriage of 1yr 5 months due to abuse (mental, physcial and verbal).. I was with this man for 6 years and you know I asked myself WHY did I waste 6 years of my life with a man who didn't love me ..wait he loved me.. loved to hurt me, cut me down lower then dirt, loved to break my self-esteem down so far to the point I almost didn't have any left. I suffered from post partum depression as well and other depression. Now I am regaining self esteem and confidence. Enough of a li'l bit about me.... Your story is truly sad and it breaks m heart to read how badly you were treated. It is just sick how he would do something soooo ignorant to you. I know I sound a bit mad, well I am. What rights did he have to put you "away" like he did? Just because of an argument? Well if you ask me.... HE should be put away and evaluated. You are a strong woman Rebecca, never lose hope or ground on that. Stand tall and proud that you are a woman and NO ONE deserves this type of treatment of abuse. WE are human not some dog that gets kicked around when they have a bad day, we are mothers of thier children and they still treat us like they own us, and we need to obey. Fortuntly there are a few good men out there, and let me tell ya, adjusting to kindness and sweet comments is hard, your barriers are up, your guard is on stand 24-7. It is like the feelings never end of "When is it coming.. is this too good to be true?" A hysterctomy sounds like a really great alternitive to psych meds. I know taht not having PMS and then going through the change of life is devistating in itself. (I am 25) but menopause is not fun, the hormones are out of wack and drives you and the family crazy. Your mood swings are fip-flopped, your nights are sweat out breaks and you are just plain MISERABLR. Now without your female organs, you no longer have to worry about all of that mess and your life will seem more pleasent to you and your family. I am very happy to hear that you found an alternitive. Keep spreading the word and a smile on your face. I look forward hearing more from you and how you have been. Your new friend, Ally Dodadagohvi, Aisv Nu Wa Do hi ya oo (until we meet again, walk in peace) -Cherokee Language.

Hi Rebecca As your story continues about your life it gets more and more sad. I am very sorry for the loss of your husband. I know that there are no words that can truly convey the feelings one has at a time of such loss. Knowing in your heart that your husband died needlessly makes it even harder. I lost my father in much trhe same way a year ago last Sep. He had suffered a terrible 3rd degree burn and after 3 months in a nursing home rehab, he was doing very well except for a small blod clot that was forming at his ankle. They did treat him for the clot for a while and then decided it was OK. Well, the clot moverd from his ankle to his heart and killed him only a day or 2 short of being discharged. I felt many of the same feelings that you must be feeling. At first, there was only the sense of loss. Then there was the anger and the need to find justice for what I knew was an oversight on the part of those in charge of his care. In the end though, I had to put all of these emotions behind me and carry on with my life. Carrying anger with you from day to day will destroy a person. I had to accept the fact that father was gone and that nothing I did was going to change that. Now, when I think about my Father, I think about the way he touched peoples lives with his quick wit. The wqy his eyes would sparkle when he smiled. Dad was a wonderful man and he and I still share many a smile together. I wish you the best Rebecca and I welcome you back here any time you ever want to come visit. You will always have someone to talk with here. Take care my Friend. May a smile follow you to sleep each night,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, and be there waiting,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, when you awaken. Sincerly, Bill Vanderbilt Mental Health And Political Forums http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=8212 http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=9637 http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=8259 http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=13254 http://community.adlandpro.com/forumShow.aspx?ForumID=11791 Business Forums http://wv0079721.betteruniverse.com http://www.ourpowerforcedmatrix.com/team.php?UID=10561