Dear Cindy,
Oh my dear, my heart cries for you and Katie, dear young girl. I will agree in prayer with you all. Now we must find some Encouragement, some faith for this...and we find it deep in our own hearts where God is and does and will speak to us. We are too torn and ripped to be able to "hear," but let's seek to do just that; this is where we will find hope and answers.
I am not you, not the mother facing this, but God gives me a heart specifically for the hurting and I seek for his answers. Try for this faith, and it's a bit of a challenge...The kind that "seeks" What God's Will is here even if it isn't man's will, as the Lord's Prayer, "Thy will be done on Earth "as it is" in Heaven...We surrender this child completely to you, it's life; do as "You" Desire Lord; the child is yours; and we will now Give our complete trust to you for the life of this child, to do with him/her just what will be the very wisest in your eyes and purpose, and count on you to know our hearts and care for us also, for our deep love for Katy and baby, to please consider all our hearts and desires as we committ all our lives and complete trust to you Amen.
Dear Mother, I can just imagine the excruciating pain you all are under; I've been a Mom with 2 miscarriages; I havn't had your pain but we Moms can sense it and imagine!
I want to Encourage you that I today have 'Faith' for this word which Jesus said: "Is it easier for me to say your sins be forgiven or take up your bed and walk?" Because I "saw" my husband "see" him in a dying state and stand from a dying bed 45 minutes after completely well! And We had an EKG that verified his heart was "very bad!" I also "saw" a kind of Joy, peace, and "longing" love on his face when "He" saw the Lord, that I knew then, he would have been overjoyed to go away with him right then! I felt a bit jealous in an odd way to see him love someone more than me. It's was astonishing!
So I say to you, "Know" my sister, that God knows "exactly" what's going on with this child! He has not not seen anything! You know very little about what's going on, but try to Believe this...that God "is" in Control!!!
He make take the baby home before she/he comes into the world; I can't tell you how many people I've heard of and some personally who've received death sentences from Doctors with very little time and "Nothing" ever happened to them! Over many years! There is always the possibility he may allow the child to enter this world afflicted and this is the hard thing, and we cannot understand "why!" yet there are many living today who are afflicted in many ways who I believe are like special people God has great meaning and purpose in.
We only see in part in this life. You Do Not have to surrender to fear, anxiety, and torment! Why? Because God is the Power, the Maker, the Creator, and He is the one who knows and Loves this little life even more than you or katy! And His plan is "always" in effect!
Your job is one thing...it's harder to "surrender" our complete will and complete absolute trust to God...I mean trusting him for "whatever" He chooses is best in his eyes to do. But I have found evidence in my own life...that I end up more blessed, even in the face of death, If I "surrender" to God's will, even if I don't know what it is! this is a part of Faith...and part of Mountain Moving Faith! Do you understand?
You will find and allow the greatest "Power" of God into the situation by you all's Greatest "Surrender"...absolute faith in him...not that he will do all that you ask but that he will bring his will to Earth, and also consider "your hearts Desires," and love and wants for this child and Katy.
You "can" believe and trust that God id always everywhere and "can" hear! And a scripture for you....
"...and if we know he hears us, we "know" we receive the petitions we desire of him." "If we ask our Father for bread, will he give us a stone?" Never! I am rather pleading with you to, instead of worrying to death, to put all that power of grief and worry you feel "into" seeking to lay your heart prostrate before God "as if" "You" were dying and and were able and willing now to say...God, I give up; I "surrender" the entire thing to you with absoluteness!
We people are afraid to do that because we are afraid God may not really know how desperate we are and what we "have to" have. Wrong..He knows every single cell of your heart and katies...Now you Trust Him with your entire being, that even if he does this or that...no matter what...Trust that "all" is in his hand and that His will "will" occur and be done.
This is the "KIND" of Faith that even if it is as a Mustrard seed...it will Move Mountains! There's a scret about it....which is...it's not so much great powerful Faith in us God is looking for.....but great powerful "Love & Trust" from us "for" him....the kind of Trust that you might have for your earthly father who you "know" would answer qucikly and with all your soul in mind. Trust God just like that! He will "see" it in you....and it will move mountains!
We will all pray, but no one can touch the heart of God more than the Mother & Grandmother....Now you touch His heart...anmd He surely will answer you, comfort, you, provide what you need, and will keep the baby in the palm of his and!
We Love You and "will" all not forget each night to pray for Katy and Baby! Right people? Love sis Kim