Dear Pauline, Beautiful story; the best ones are often bittersweet it seems, but leave us with some lesson of virtue. It's as if our human eyes have limited ability; that they can only see well what's right in front of them, unlike Nana who was able to see from a distant perspective and feel it too. We live for today often and "if" we knew about all our tomorrows, we might live differently.
God gave me a word once that remains an eternal comfort...it was related to the pain I felt for years (at times) figuring I would see the day when my Dear Phil (hubby) would go on before me, since he's 19 years older. He's been through 2 heart attacks and after recovering from these, a miraculous healing a year ago that's part of a wild story, and so he's Ok today, but maybe that depression I've always had played a part in my intense sadness; I used to cry and cry just thinking about that day coming.
Anyway, God gave me this word....during this visitation when he was miraculously healed...actually Phil "heard" these words during this time after "he" asked God how long he would be with me...."You will be with her forever in spirit."
Take it for what you will; for me it to this day leaves me with a greeater peace and comfort; I feel a knowing that he won't leave me until a time when God's knows it's right, if he does leave me first, because Phil also "heard" I mean "heard"...the first time he asked God this question that..."You will be with her as long as she needs you."
I felt these words come to me in the way you feel God's own words come to you, with that certain "quickening," and so I tell you all incase a time comes that you need them! By these words I have a "knowing" that all things are in God's hand, when we let them be there or put our life in his hand, so that it is true that He will not put the absolutely unbearable on us, but "if" we do face some very hard, painful places in life, we can know that indeed God is with us and has given us what we need to......walk on.
You are a beautfiul heart Pauline as are so many others here also. Yes indeed, when my Phil had these 2 heart attacks, Oh boy...the thoughts that flooded me! Yes indeed, we are inspired to give and do and say what we will to those we Love while we still have the time.
But when time is up here, we have a Hope! I am one who does not believe our loved ones in God are all that far from us; but it seems even though they are gone from here, you can "still" feel them as if they still are. And I believe they still are.
Love, Long Winded Preachergirl!