Hi everyone,

Bill, this is a wonderful forum. 

I myself often wondered if PTSD really does ever go away?  I have had a hard life myself as a child and as an adult.  And I sometimes feel I am trapped in this world of PTS and can't find a way out. I am seeing a theropist, and when I tell her stroies of my life, and people that know me are shocked I never had a thought of suicide.  I never felt that way, but when I speak of my recent past I still cry still to this day.  I ask myself why can't I tell this story without crying? I mean it happened 2.5 yrs ago... and it still hurts me to talk about it.  It hurts more then when I talk about my childhood. 

I feel alone in my world sometimes, even though I have a wonderful Hubby and 2 beautiful children, I just feel alone in my world with PTSD.  I just want the pain to go away and stay away.  I laugh and smile and stay myslef, but when I look at Summer and all her and I have been through together it hurts.  Normally I do not try to go on this long.... but I had to get it off my chest.

Every one of your stories are an inspiration to all.  Thank you for sharing yours and one day, when I can without crying, I will share mine.

Love to all

Ally V.