Living in the Uncertainty Where God’s Got It Covered

Nancy Bowers, RScP

“Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.”

– Rainer Maria Rilke, 1903, in “Letters to a Young Poet”

It wasn’t that long ago that I caught myself complaining to one of my friends. I was lamenting my current circumstances; frantically searching for some place to park blame. I wanted to be able to know how to fix my problems. I wanted him to reassure me and tell me everything was going to be all right. I knew better than to be complaining. I’m a metaphysician. I know that energy follows thought and that the quickest way to mire myself even deeper into the untenable was to focus all my energy on it. It was habit – me looking fearfully at my situation and not knowing how my problems could be resolved. I wanted to know how it could work out. The habit of fearfulness was rearing its ugly head. “Learn to live in the uncertainty,” he told me. “That’s where the infinite possibility lies.”

So this is my prayer for remembering that truth:

God, the One Life, the All, is Everything, is Infinite Possibility. It is the multitude of expression. The ten thousand things, the Energy behind and through everything. It is the Question. It is the Answer. It is the Mystery, the Curiosity, the Impetus urging towards discovery. It is the Fresh Delight of Evolution, where Life unfolds into a greater expression of itself.

And this life is mine. I am an expression of the One Life and I unfold into that mystery. I am the evolution of my soul, ever discovering this dance of beingness. I am the one having patience as I try to learn to love the questions themselves. I am the seeker of answers, but I am also one who is willing to allow the uncertainty to just be, faithful in my trust as I allow the Divine Patterning to reveal the splendor it contains. God’s ideas are so often so much better than mine. God’s ideas are so often so much better than yours. And so I claim for each of us the willingness to allow the mystery to reveal its gifts. I claim for us, the patience to live with the uncertainty. I claim for us the peace that comes from letting God have it covered. I let go of the need to try to figure anything out. I let go of the tendency to what to peek around the corner. I give myself the gift of being okay with the uncertainty, of more than being okay, of being good with it, and more than being good with it, with reveling in it. I enjoy the surprises. I await them expectantly knowing God can orchestrate the pieces in ways I couldn’t begin to even imagine. I celebrate the synchronicity. I applaud God’s awesome timing. I give thanks that God is so much better at this stuff than I am. I am grateful that I can relax and let Him/Her/It figure it out for me. It feels so good to be so spoiled. It feels so good to let it go.

Thus peace is mine. I am the one happy to live in the uncertainty. And yet, there it no real uncertainty, only faith in God’s ability to wow me. I know it is already done, and that makes the mystery all that much more inspiring. And for that, I am eternal grateful. And So It Is! Amen.

Nancy Bowers is a Practitioner at the Rio Grande Center For Spiritual Living, Albuquerque, New Mexico.