Chapter Three : Practice 46

The Founding Master said,
“Before I gained my first thought of awakening, I sometimes offered up formal prayer, or recited spells that spontaneously arose in my mind, or fell unawares into a tranquil silence. After I inadvertently gained my first insight and the awakened perception cleared and the numinous gate sprang open, there continued to be fluctuations from brightness to darkness between one day’s morning and evening, or between one month’s two halves. During these fluctuations, when the gate of wisdom opened, I felt as if there were nothing under heaven I could not know or do; but when the gate closed again, I didn’t have the faintest idea what to do with my own body and worried anew about my road ahead, even doubting whether I might not be possessed by some spirits. Eventually, however, those fluctuations disappeared, and my awakened perception continued consistently.”

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