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LIFE’S MADDEN SHOES: Two Sizes Bigger! by Luka Babic |
When I received an invitation from my dear friend Sam Sunday to participate in this forum, I was feeling pretty blue, burnt out from my dilemmas and “trilemmas” about my future profession. But knowing that no one else can bite the bullet except me, I decided to refresh my spirit and mind ... knowing I am in Adland - the Most Beautiful Land upon the earth.
The spring is still procrastinating from coming to my region and I am missing it greatly. The grey sky above Belgrade ... and too depressive faces along the streets, too heavy traffic ... too big smog concentration ... OMG - I do not like being augmentative! But, who cares?
Actually, I was born with one terrific augmentation... the shoes being always two sizes bigger than needed. People call it “premature maturity”. Any kind of pondering on these matters does not go down well with my mother. My mother considers them as a hobby of driving the car backwards, wasting the time while cherishing some self-pity. She considers as totally nonsensical, the expression "premature maturity", the same way as may be considered “black whiteness or white blackness” lol. While scientists may treat this "premature maturity" in relation to drugs like some type of addictions ... science itself is still far from definitive answer, and the precise number of such cases is highly speculative, my case is still not fully researched, I must say.
Before having an entrance examination to the University, I AM ALREADY GETTING READY TO BE RETIRED ! Seriously, I am ready.
If I decide to study Medicine, apart from being a very expensive, intensive and long-running course ... it is not easy to get an employment ... and when eventually you find one – some miserable “black-mails” are offered rather than ANY good salary in the first year or two. Well, after this first year or two ... if I please my bosses and still stay employed ... my monthly income would not be enough for the elementary and basic expenses. My personality does not fit to any bribes or to corruption, so my mother has to invest too much into my future "impoverishment", I suppose!!
If I decide to become an Actor, for what I have people say is my big talent ... that would be pretty cheaper.
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It would last shorter and is much delightful to me than Medicine ... but then, all our greatest actors today are at the edge of becoming beggars. |

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I cannot become a journalist because I am not a liar and cannot carry foreign heads on my shoulders.
Priests live as little gods in the shoes, but their shoes only fit them well, and can only be considered as smaller than is required, never bigger ... I never would be able to sell my love for God, or to be a paid preacher. That is why I cannot go to the Theological College or University.
I admire Physics ... but ... but ... but ... man must eat something, okay?
My dear Sir Roger, when he reads this article, would scream out : LUKA, BE NORMAL AND LEAVE THAT PLACE ! He is one smart and great man I know! One of dearest persons I ever met. Maybe he can hear my sigh now!
My grandparents are old, ill and pretty exhausted from some big adversities they have passed through. Occasionally, I use to argue with them ... but my heart is crying for them now. I cannot leave my Mom, knowing that besides working too hard, she has to also take care of the two of them. She would encourage me to fly away ... and will give her best to earn enough for the expenses ... but ... she is only a human being, a lady, and what if .... ? WHAT IF ? Yes, I do believe she is special. In my eyes SHE IS 7 GIANTS IN ONE WOMAN ... BUT .... that word "BUT" tells enough. My mother deserves to live as a Queen, yes I really mean it, but she is slave!! Too humble, too compassionate, too diligent, too modest, too tired!!!!!! I really do not like being augmentative. In this case, they are more dangerous than their oppositions, kind of ...
I actually planned for something humorous in this whole article of virtue and I sure started that way ... but Luka cannot lie nor pretend. I am sorry I had to veer off about my deeper feelings, that is how I am feeling right now, still I am blue, and do not wish to move out of my too-big shoes even for a short walk around.
Thanks for spending some time with me. I know that love when is shared also increases. Hope that my shared dilemma would give me some respite.
God bless you all!
Thank you dear friends!
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© Luka Babic, April, 2009.
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